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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOOFHARTID

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 14:58:06 GMT

To my buddy, Hoofhartid, whom I met in college and have known for 10 years, but have only really talked to with sincerity online through Xanga and AIM.

Funny how friendships develop, huh?

One of the Guys

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 03:05:58 GMT

I posted this last night on Wordpress, but I liked the photo, so am posting it here too... but with a little extra information.

The photo was taken in Princeton, NJ after dinner with 4 of the guys from church. It started snowing that night, so naturally a snowball fight occurred between the guys. There wasn't a lot of snow on the ground, so it wasn't much of a fight. Nonetheless, it was fun to observe from the sidelines.

The shot was kind of haphazardly taken, with no flash and probably with the indoor white balance setting (forgot to change it) on a Canon point-and-shoot. I retouched it in Picasa a little bit (need to learn Photoshop/GIMP better) - converted it to B&W, cropped and softened the image. My favorite part of the picture is the light coming from the left side. It was just a glaring, yellow parking garage light, and it makes the composition a little uneven, but I like the "path" it's creating. I also like how the guys are all doing something different with their arms while walking.

Anyway, I know nearly nothing about photography, or at least not the lingo. The original post was as follows:

I know that sometimes it’s dangerous for a girl to be “one of the guys.”

But sometimes, it’s just so flippin’ fun!

Plus, after all the jokes, barbs, and trash talk, they’ll still open your door and clean the snow off your car.

Getting Lazy

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 22:05:02 GMT

Haircut photos here!

Deep Thoughts

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 03:59:10 GMT

Food and sarcasm should be the 6th and 7th love languages.
In discerning God’s plan for you, if something doesn’t seem scary, it’s probably not from God.
I just learned that there is a medical term for a newborn’s first poop; it’s called meconium.

My brain is tired.

Seriously, why Macs?

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 14:39:17 GMT

Someone tell me why it is worth spending THAT much money on a Mac? Seriously.

I go back and forth about it all the time, but I’m not sure I can justify spending that kind of money simply because with all other factors equal, it’s “cooler” than a PC.

I’m not trying to pick a fight, I just really want to know. So tell me, why do you have (or not have) a Mac?

(For now, I'm double-posting here and on Wordpress. Click the link to see the other site.)

Don't Be Angry

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 20:27:09 GMT

I'm slowly moving my blog from Xanga to Wordpress.

6.5 years I've blogged here, but I think it's time for a change.

I'll let y'all know when the new blog is ready for unveiling. Hope you follow me there (all it takes is a change in RSS feed)!

Wisdom

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 20:32:26 GMT

Never get your hair cut just because you're upset.

Especially if you're upset at a boy.

Never.

When Harry Met Sally

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 17:00:20 GMT

I'm with Harry on this: guys and girls can't be just friends.

Or at least, I don't think I can have close guy friends anymore. These friendships seem to end in one of two ways: 1) I start liking the guy but I sense it's not mutual, so I distance myself or 2) it's mutually platonic, but he starts dating someone and neglects the friendship.

Of course, married guys count in this too, but even moreso for obvious reasons. Too bad because I usually get along with my married guy friends the best - they are much more comfortable in their own skin by the time they are married.

I'm feeling very discouraged about male/female friendships right now.

What's Worse Than Being Single?

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 23:21:09 GMT

Being SICK and single.

I know I've been whining a lot about being single these days, but overall I truly am enjoying this time of freedom and independence - it's been fun! But, I must admit that the reality of singlehood really hits me hard when I'm under the weather.

Forget being single during the holidays; I never understood why that was such a big deal. At least you're surrounded by friends and family and there are (hopefully) tons of parties and dinners to go to. But when you're sick, no one really wants to be around you, and vice versa - I quarantine myself as to not get others sick. If I had a husband, he'd HAVE to keep me company . Even a boyfriend is obligated to visit (and hopefully would want to) and bring over some soup and flowers.

But no, here I am tonight, fending off a cold all by my lonesome.

On the upside, I don't have to worry about how gross I look right now. And I bought ice cream to make myself feel better. Green tea ice cream is good for you right? Antioxidants and crap? C'mon, it's green tea...!

An Unconventional Job

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 17:36:08 GMT

Recently, I've been toying with the idea of working at my church. The department/ministry that oversees worship music, media, etc. needs a new assistant. There are a number of reasons I would love this job and just as many reasons why I would be good for it too.

Right now, it's just a blip of an idea since I haven't spoken to anyone about it at church officially. But even at this infantile stage of planning, I've gotten some negative and mixed reactions. Of course, there's my mom - who as much as she loves the Lord, may always identify herself as a Korean mom first, and a Christ-follower second. Even though I understand where she's coming from, it disappoints me no less that she sees this opportunity as a career misstep simply because it's at the church. Aside from my mom, even a trusted friend asked, "Well, what is the future in this?" It was a completely valid question and I'm not mad at her for asking it, but I felt like I had to justify this idea with some grand plan about how it will advance my career in this way and that, when all I really could say was, "I don't know... but I'll leave that to God."

I understand why there's a stigma associated with working for the church, moreso if you've grown up in a Korean church, like I have. Before joining my current (and ethnically diverse) church, the idea of working for the church meant earning less than minimum wage, no health benefits, driving a beater, getting no sleep, even less recognition, and no financial support for ministry ideas from elders/governing board. I know despite its flaws, this isn't the case with my current church, but people have expressed some concerns and it's making me rethink the opportunity a bit. And maybe that's really why I'm bothered - because people are saying things that I have thought myself, but didn't want to admit. Because maybe their fears are exactly the same as my fears, so when they tell me these things, I'm not really upset at them, I'm upset at myself. Ooh, I just got a little too Dr. Phil on you, didn't I? My bad...

Anyway, like I said, it's a blip of an idea. Hardly anything to stress over right now. But it's a possibility. And on the flipside, I've gotten some encouraging feedback about it. It could very well be exactly what God wants for me right now, especially given how he has directed my life this year. Or it could just be another idea, come and gone until the right opportunity appears.

We shall see...